This Mother's Day was bittersweet for me, because I realized it would be my last Mother's Day with my oldest son actually living here, in this house.
(Unless, of course, he moves back home after college while he looks for a job. Which I hear is entirely possible.)
Being a mother is all about letting go. You let your child take his first steps. You let him go to school. You let him go spend the night at a friend's house. You let him drive himself in the car. All huge, scary things for a mommy.
Then it comes time to let him go FOR REAL. You realize that the other times were all just practices. You realize that all the other times you "let go" were just WALKS IN THE PARK compared to the real thing.
I have to let him go be a real grown-up person now. And I'm so excited and happy for him and I'm so, so sad for me! Which makes me slightly schizophrenic, I guess. Happy/Sad Mother's Day to me!
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3 comments:
Oh... :(
My sister has just gone through this with my eldest niece. Granted, Rebecca's college is just a thirty-minute drive from home, but it was still a hard transition to face last summer. But, if my sister's experience is typical, everyone will adjust and the times you have together when he's home will just be so precious and sweet.
He will always be your loving son. Nothing will ever change that.
It's such an exciting time! Too bad change is so hard!
I dread the day(s)... and I can only hope to be as graceful, strong, and lovely as you in the midst of it all.
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